Pyaar Prema Kadhal

Today, I had a chit-chat with a friend and it turned out to be a deeper discussion that triggered my trail of thoughts and I decided to pen it down immediately because lately I am experiencing drought of words and hey, make hay while the sun shines!
What started as listing out the traits that make one attractive to another individual drifted to what could be the red signals that can drive you away. I responded, "men who are dominating drives me crazy" and my friend rightly pointed out everyone dominates irrespective of the gender. It is just that the degree varies and we’ll just have to find the one whom we can tolerate. It made me wonder how living with another individual is a tough job and yet the majority of us pursue it with zeal and successfully remain in a relationship throughout their life. When I started to think further and dig deep down, I think the primary reason behind this is our survival instinct.
Right from the start of the evolution, we human beings have lived in groups as we understand the inevitability of dependence. The more sophisticated form of this is to look for companionship for various important purposes like leading a smooth life in a self-centered and the competitive world, getting accepted by the society, carrying our lineage to the future generation etc.
But we do understand that co-existing takes a great deal of effort. Sharing a life with another person and tolerating their quirks while expecting the same from them is a huge deal. How do we do it? This is when we introduce the dignified term: Love. The encapsulation of science behind our dependence on others and coping this co-existence concept is what I call love. Doesn’t sound dignified when you put it this way, isn’t it? But it is indeed a very interesting subject. As part of our evolution, we have always convinced ourselves with abstraction when things become too difficult to understand or reason out. In a way, love is also an abstract concept (encapsulation and abstraction, OOPS can explain anything and everything under the roof (. Oh wait! we talked about inheritance too: D) which we use as a tool to reason out when we are unable to justify our otherwise unexplainable behavior.
Our society and our culture form their own framework and try to define the scope of this love. An individual’s personality, his core beliefs, his surroundings, everything contributes in its own way in shaping up love and hence giving each one of us a unique experience. The ultimatum is reached when we start believing what we practice is the supreme unconditional love.
I am not here to argue if this is right or wrong but just fascinated by this theory and how it helps us lead the life harmoniously and just for this reason, I agree, love is dignified.

My thoughts on Mayakam Ena

RAW, RUDE and REALISTIC the 3 R's are the mandatory elements in Selva's movie and Mayakam Ena is not an exception to this. In fact that only makes this movie special. Loved every scene of it. Strangely I find this movie sharing the storyline of alchemist –“ when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it” and Selva has made that realistic.

Of course it is not just another story where a hero wants to become a singer/cop/kick boxer etc and achieves it with all his heroic stunts just like sipping a cup of coffee. It’s a normal man's story whose passion for photography is burning inside. The movie doesn't give false hope to people like us that it is so easy to achieve your goal when you love them and that’s what makes the movie interesting.. The hero here neither beats the villain to death nor files a case against him when he finds him using his photo and claiming it as his own. Coz that's not what normal people do.(One more Tamil movie that was realistic with same kind of storyline is vellithirai and I loved it too).

Special mention about the female lead. She has got guts, attitude and most importantly good acting skills. Wish she chooses her movie wisely from now on, if that happens she is more likely to be a successor of yester year actress Sujatha. Danush as usual was at his best. We all know only his brother can bring out the best in him and that has happened as usual. BGM was good. GVP has done a good job.. Or is it a combined job of both GVP and Anirud? :P Although many didn't like the climax I simply loved it. The only thing that I didn't like about the movie is the placement and the picturization of "Kadhal En Kadhal" song.

To sum it all Mayakam Ena - A film by Selva :)





PS: I haven't read Alchemist fully. I stopped reading it half way as it is not my kind of book

From White to Black

It’s been more than a year since I wrote my last blog…. Laziness is the sole reason for it.. Well.. Enough of that.. Lets come to the point.. I am here to write about my experience in Mysore, the 7 months training in Infy campus. The main reason for me to write about it is this. Before joining infy, like all others, I too was interested in knowing about my company and how the training would be like. Almost everybody around me scared me about the training… I only received comments like It’s a golden cage, U will find everything great but you will not be able to enjoy.. You will not have time… Time management is tough.. You will have to work 24*7 to complete your training. Exams are real nightmare.. Passing it is itself very tough and many more.. Basically I am not a person who is that intelligent.. I am not hard working either.. So I was dead scared.. Thanks to one of my friends. He was the only one who told it’s all about perceptions, go and find it out by yourself.. That really worked out for me.. Honestly speaking the training was not tough.. Twas infact interesting…All you have to do is to listen to the classes and work out the assignments. They used to teach so well and hence u will definitely listen. So twas actually not a tough job to clear the xams.. Although I wasn’t a topper, I atleast cleared them with decent marks.. So what I am trying to say is, when you are trying to venture new things please don’t let others comments bother you. Try it out urself and find out how it actually is.

Apart from the academics, there were many more things that the training taught me.. It helped me to do things on my own. Fear of loneliness, which I dreaded the most - - I was able to overcome it only because of the training.. It taught me how to have your breakfast, lunch and dinner alone. It taught me watching a movie alone in a multiplex is not a bad idea (Thanx to sudarshan for tat . Sudarshan, u inspired me in doin tat :P). Thanks to padma for patiently hearing my ramblings everytime , whenever I was confused and hurt. Thanks a lot for ur support. Thanks to ranj and deep for their advices wenevr I was in helpless state.. Thanks to hari for indirectly helping me to become 0.1% matured :P. Thanks to rakesh for debugging all my codes (and repairing my mob :P)!! Thanks to dipesh for being my neighbor in class 4 the 1^st one month, without ur valuable doubts I wudn’t have startd thinking :P. Last but not the least!! Thank you PRIYA for being my roomie… I know it’s a VERY tough job!! Sorry for all the troubles I had caused.

INFY MYSORE TRAINING – definitely a memorable one!!

Ps: The title from white to black denotes the color change in my tag.. I cudn’t thnk of a better title :P

Who Am I?

Warning : Things which I have written below will not be interesting to most of the readers. So remember, you are reading this at your own risk!!!

For the past 5 days the question which is disturbing me a lot is this - WHO AM I? If I ask the same question to my friends the answer will be one among these.

1. A drama queen

2. A joker

3. A grown up kid

4. An attitude queen

5. An assertive person

Well I don't find any of these as a best suited answer for my question. So here goes my self analysis. You might even consider this as a self testimonial. If you think so, yes it is!

To start with, I'm ultra sensitive. You stare at me, i cry. This is how I am. Perhaps this is why I'm called as a drama queen in my friends circle. When it comes to emotions I'm an extremist. One moment you'll find me happy, the next boiling with rage and the next with tears in my eyes.

I'm a dreamer. When I am alone at home or lying in my bed without feeling sleepy, I'll be dreaming about things I wish for. However my dreams always remain as dreams without being fulfilled ( or I should say it as I always dream about things which are unrealistic and unachievable )

The people around me including my parents says that I'm so very adament. Even my sun sign tells the same and I totally agree to it. I don't feel that there is anything wrong in being so.

I have got a bit of ego in me. May be I should call it as self dignity/respect.

The quality which I hate in myself is short temper. A one line teaser is more than enough to make me explode. But at the same time you can bring me back to normal within minutes.

The quality which i like in me is that I'm always frank. I never hesitate to speak about things going on my mind and i never care about the consequences.

It is not that easy to make me speak to a new comer. But once you make me do it you'll have a tough time in making me stop... Books will always remain as my good companion. Infact i prefer books to movies.

I usually find it difficult to understand about the people around me but I'm confident that I have understood myself well.

To sum it up i use my evergreen quote : I AM WHAT I AM

My First Suicide Attempt

Yep i know the title itself sounds terrific but this is one funny incident which i'll never forget in my life... Lets get into the story now!!

I was studying in 3rd std that time and my half yearly exams were goin on.. I had 2 days holiday before geography exam (saturday and sunday) and my neighbours were planning to go for a movie on sunday (movie name: avai shanmugi) and askd me if iam coming with them. I after pleading my father 100 times was given permission on 1 condition that I should finish studying 4 my exam on saturday. I was overjoyed amd i did prepare for my exam on saturday itself .. After asking me all possible questions from the book my dad finally allowed me to go for the movie on sunday( eve show).. The next day i went to the school and started writing the exam.... (Here comes the twist!!) I was so tired that i slept off in the exam hall itself and just woke up some half an hour before the bell.. I managed to scribble something and gave my paper and went back home.. When my dad enquired me about the exam i outta fear lied to him that i wrote well.. I was really really getting scared and it was this point of time i decided to commit SUICIDE. I wrote a letter to my dad (in a short size ruled paper) about the reason and askd them not to save me ( cos i had watched a karthik movie before where he would try 2 commit suicde but people will save him and he'll be arrested for suicide attempt). So i didn.t want the same in my case too. So after mentioning all these things in my letter I took out a knife from the kitchen and as soon as the kinfe touched my skin i got terribly afraid and so ran back to the kitchen placed the knife it its place, tore the paper into bits and sat in silence..  I have never said a word about it to my parents till now..

ps: I scored 57 in that exam and managed to get 5th rank. ( Yep i was a nerd that time.. :P)